You Smile I Smile

You Smile I Smile
Sonshine: My Journey After the Loss of My Son

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Happy 24th Birthday!

My Dearest Andy,

I can't let your birthday go by without including you in my blog.  10/10/88 - the best day of my life!!! I hope you had the most wonderful party in heaven. Do they eat angel food cake there? I know, dumb joke, I can see you rolling your eyes. Remember when I used to embarrass you in the car by dancing in my seat at red lights? Haha! I love you so much honey and miss you still. But I take great comfort knowing you are in such a wonderful place, living in peace and happiness.  Thank you for looking out for me. I love knowing I have an angel watching over me  ^i^    We are having a little get-together Saturday night to celebrate your life and the joy you brought to us. Look for the lighted balloons!! I know you will be there <3

I'm just remembering your precious little face when you were young and the handsome young man you grew up to be. I was and still am so proud of you. You were a beautiful person to whom life was not always kind. I know it was hard for you to be a sensitive soul in this world. I want you to know that you left a beautiful many love you, miss you, and strive to honor you every day. As for me, you brought me the most wonderful, happy days of my life. And now, I have one favor to supremely, completely, ridiculously happy until we meet again. If you are happy, I am happy...or maybe more aptly, "You smile, I smile"  :-)  Love you Bean!


  1. Happy Birthday Andy ! I'll bet you didn't completely understand the ripple that your life and your passing made to the people on Earth. I am so glad that your mother has been courageous enough to share her beautiful recollections of you here. I know you are well and home safely.
    Pam, as always a moving chronicle of the life which follows your "Sonshine". He would be so proud of you.

  2. Happy Birthday to Andy and his loving Mom!
    We haven't had to face my son's birthday without him yet...I'm not sure how I'll get through it. Did you have a celebration last year also?

    1. Yes, we did...I invited all his friends to the cemetery and we decorated his grave and had a butterfly release. One of the kids brought a cake, and we sang happy birthday. It could have been a very sad day, but having all his friends there and having a celebration of his life made it a very special, sweet day. I'll probably do it every year, as long as his friends are still here.