You Smile I Smile

You Smile I Smile
Sonshine: My Journey After the Loss of My Son

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Just for Today...

I got a beautiful gift last night. Andy's dad, Ken, moved last week, and naturally he came upon many of Andy's things in the process of packing and unpacking. When he opened Andy's guitar case, he found this poem which I had given Andy probably 15 years ago. It made me smile, and it made me cry. It made me happy I gave it to him. Mostly I was filled with joy that it meant enough to him that he kept it all those years, and it was in pristine condition. I'm going to have it framed. It is a beautiful and wise poem, and it rings especially true for me in one part--you'll know it when you see it. If you are a parent, please take a moment to read it, and more importantly, practice what it says. Do it in memory of Andy if you would. I love you honey and I will until the end of time.

Just For Today
by Sally Meyer

Just for this morning,
I am going to smile when I see your face...
and laugh when I feel like crying.

Just for this morning,
I will let you wake up softly in your flannel p.j.'s...
and hold you until you are ready to stir.

Just for this morning,
I will let you choose what you want to wear...
and I will say how beautiful you are.

Just for this morning,
I will step over the laundry to pick you up...
and take you to the park to play

Just for this morning,
I will leave the dishes in the sink...
and let you teach me how to put your puzzle together.

Just for this afternoon,
I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off...
and sit with you in the garden
blowing bubbles.

Just for this afternoon,
I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you
scream and whine for the ice cream truck...
and I will buy you one, if he comes by.

Just for this afternoon,
I won't worry about what you are going to be
when you grow up...
I will simply love you for the joy you bring me

Just for this afternoon,
I will let you help me make cookies...
and I wont stand over you . . . trying to 'fix things.'

Just for this afternoon,
I will take you to McDonald's and buy us both a 'Happy Meal'...
so you can have two toys.

Just for this evening,
I will hold you in my arms and tell you the story of how you
were born...
and how much we love you.

Just for this evening,
I will let you splash in the bathtub...
and I won't get angry when you pour water over your sister's

Just for this evening,
I will let you stay up late...
while we sit on the porch swing
and count all the stars.

Just for this evening,
I will bring you glasses of water...
and snuggle beside you for hours...
and miss my favorite t.v. show.

And tonight when you are sleeping safe and warm in your bed,
I will think of the mothers and fathers
who mourn for the children they have lost.

I will remember the parents who sit by hospital beds,
watching over the little ones they love.

I will weep for those parents whose children are cold,
hungry and suffering,

and .... this evening,
when I kneel down to pray,
I will simply be grateful for all that I have

and not ask for anything...

except just one more day.

Monday, September 10, 2012

Random poems written on a rainy day...

Beautiful boy I miss you so
I wish you didn’t have to go
You made my life a joy to live
All the love you had to give

Now my life is incomplete
Now it simply isn’t so sweet
Your lovely face, your sunny smile
They made me happy for awhile

I pray for you to joyfully play
In heaven’s clouds on sunny days
All my love to you I send
In paradise at rainbow’s end

I feel you are happy, peaceful and free
Forever the best thing that ever happened to me
So wait for me, I love you best
And thank you for the lives you blessed.


There’s a garden I keep
It lives in my heart
Beautiful memories
Since you had to part.

Where flowers bloom
In colorful hues
Purples and reds
Yellows and blues.

Where butterflies flutter
On delicate wings            
In the golden sunshine
That each new day brings.

I tend to it lovingly
For all that you gave
It helps me still smile
It helps me be brave.

I cherish this garden
My beautiful son
And I’ll meet you there soon
When my life is done.